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04/16/06*04/16/06b*04/16/06c*8/13/02*08/03/02 12:48 p.m.
"clothes make the man. naked people have little or no influence on society."

the logical thought process that accompanies any decision in my brain having to do with a boy i have a crush on goes like this...
well, he said theyre hangin out tonight, and he said he's trying to convince *girl he has a crush on* to i go? not right now, definitely, let him think you've got something to do. finish er. impress him with your wit. what do i wear over there? i wore that last time, and that a week ago...everything makes me look fat. gym tomorrow, most definitely. get back in shape. maybe i dont go and he thinks i have something to do and am not a loser with no social life. maybe i go and shes not there and he realizes i'm much better than she is. maybe i dont go and shes there and they fall madly in love because she realizes what a great guy he is and he's already in love with her. maybe i dont go and he doesnt give it a second thought. oh, screw it.

thats what was running thru my head last night when zac called. this time i decided not to go since he and i and agatha (the girl he likes) are going to cowboy mouth. on the one hand, how much fun is it to listen to your crush drool over someone else? on the other hand, it's cowboy mouth and its free and it'll be a blast. and i may have a new crush...we'll just have to wait and see about that i guess. supposed to go hang with robbie and mark and friends tonight, but i dont know if i want to. i should, with robbie leaving so soon and all, but i've been so social over the past couple weeks that i just dont feel like it right now. and i know i'll go out tomorrow night after the wedding since it's zac's bday. what better time to take advantage of him than when he's drunk, right? j/k

btw, its friday the 13th and no good ever came from this day. this could also be why i dont want to go anywhere. superstition getting the better of me.

"if you invent two or three people and turn them loose in your manuscript, something is bound to happen to them -- you can't help it; and then it will take you the rest of the book to get them out of the natural consequences of that occurance, and so first thing you know, there's your book all finished up and never cost you an idea."
-mark twain

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